To : My Children's Daddy

Am just feeling pissed off with hubby new job. No it's not about his job but their shift and working hrs. We are no longer living in luxury as we used to before. We have been ups and down since Oct last year. Yeah, it was during the month, which needed the most money. Ramadhan and Aidilfitri. Hubby was been out of job for 5months. I was the only sole breadwinner for that solid 5mths. If you were to ask me is it painful? Yes!! FYI, it's Super pain with my emotions, mental + financial. After going thru lots of interviews, hopes were given but most of it fails. Alhamdullilah, he got a job in Feb09 with an affordable salary scale but still lesser than what he used to earn. As everyone knows time are bad. So just grab wat comes along BUT of course must be a reliable one. His working hrs is 12hrs shift. 1off day weekly. Of course Off day got to be agreed and can only be 1 at a time. Honestly all his frens and family saw the drastic weight loss in him. But he never complains on this job. But I am the one been complaining. Why ?? He got lesser time to spend with our kids. I am fine not having time for me cause I am an adult and a mother to my kids. Each time hubby reached home, he would just ask, How is school? How is Ngaji? Any homework? If Ariel have been a good boy today? Everybody eats? Bla bla bla ... He had his bath and dinner and on his bed to prepare for tomorrow. Haiz~ Since then, weekends have been without hubby or daddy around. All done by me. DON’T get me wrong here, I am NOT complaining on taking over daddy responsibility but just bothered and disturbed for MY KIDS. I only felt they have been receiving less from daddy due to work commitment. When they need daddy supports but daddy can't make it due to work commitment. I am depressed especially for daddy's girl, Nurul. When she participate for her 1st ever Coloring Competition, daddy can't make it. Now Nurul gets selected for her sports day, Sadly Daddy can't make it too =( Dear Daddy, I know it’s hard for you and mummy know you are also crying inside. I know how precious is Nurul to you. Ariel is growing big too. They need you are much you need them too. Mummy could see from your eyes how proud of you having such a beautiful children. You told me how guilty at times towards them. You will never left the kids behind unless there is a good reason to do so. You always want to rush back to be with kids when we were outside. Daddy is such a children lover, reasons he is the only child in the family. Therefore he loves kids so much. Our children are everything for you. We are blessed to have them, Alhamdullilah Allah. Daddy, we love you so much and proud to have you as my husband. Big hug to you daddy!!