365 hari sudah berlalu ...... Abah masih dalam hati ku

Tanggal 28 April 2009, genaplah setahun sudah Abah pergi menyahut seruaan Illahi.

Pejam kelip masa amat menyemburui kita sekeluarga sehinggakan tidak memberi sedetik masa untuk kita berada disisinya semasa dia menghembuskan nafasnya yg terakhir.

Abah pergi semasa tidurnya. Tiada sesiapa yg menyedari ketiadaannya.

Ku bersyukur teramat bahawa Abah pergi dengan tenang dan tanpa sedikit pon kesakitan atau kepayahan.

365 hari sudah berlalu, namun segala kenangan sewaktu aku kecil hinggalah ku meningkat dewasa. Kini aku sudah pon bergelar isteri dan ibu kepada 2 cahaya mata ku,

semuanya lagi terngiyang-ngiyang diingatan ku.

Walaupon Abah jauh nun disana, aku hanya mampu bersedekahkan Al-fatehah pabila teringatkan Abah. Setelah kehilangnya, aku kini hilang tempat bermesra dan bermanja.

Tidak ku lupa juga ketegasannya. Cara Abah mendidik cucu-cucunya. Mereka masih mengingati bahawa Abah pernah hadir dalam diri mereka. Abah dikenali oleh cucu-cucu nya sebagai seorang datuk yg garang tapi tidak dikecualikan juga datuk yg sayangkan kesemua cucu-cucunya itu.

Segalanya yg berlaku bagaikan suatu yang berlalu begitu pantas dan kami sekeluarga sememangnya redha dan pasrah. Kami menjalani kehidupan seharian tanpa kehadiran Abah namum Abah selalu berada didalam hati kami.

Abah, ketahuilah Manis sangat sangat merindui Abah begitu juga Nurul, cucu abah yang dahulunya pernah Abah jaga dari lahirnya.

Tenanglah Abah dialamu, Tunggulah kami dialamu

Al-fatehah

To : My Children's Daddy

Am just feeling pissed off with hubby new job. No it's not about his job but their shift and working hrs. We are no longer living in luxury as we used to before. We have been ups and down since Oct last year. Yeah, it was during the month, which needed the most money. Ramadhan and Aidilfitri. Hubby was been out of job for 5months. I was the only sole breadwinner for that solid 5mths. If you were to ask me is it painful? Yes!! FYI, it's Super pain with my emotions, mental + financial. After going thru lots of interviews, hopes were given but most of it fails. Alhamdullilah, he got a job in Feb09 with an affordable salary scale but still lesser than what he used to earn. As everyone knows time are bad. So just grab wat comes along BUT of course must be a reliable one. His working hrs is 12hrs shift. 1off day weekly. Of course Off day got to be agreed and can only be 1 at a time. Honestly all his frens and family saw the drastic weight loss in him. But he never complains on this job. But I am the one been complaining. Why ?? He got lesser time to spend with our kids. I am fine not having time for me cause I am an adult and a mother to my kids. Each time hubby reached home, he would just ask, How is school? How is Ngaji? Any homework? If Ariel have been a good boy today? Everybody eats? Bla bla bla ... He had his bath and dinner and on his bed to prepare for tomorrow. Haiz~ Since then, weekends have been without hubby or daddy around. All done by me. DON’T get me wrong here, I am NOT complaining on taking over daddy responsibility but just bothered and disturbed for MY KIDS. I only felt they have been receiving less from daddy due to work commitment. When they need daddy supports but daddy can't make it due to work commitment. I am depressed especially for daddy's girl, Nurul. When she participate for her 1st ever Coloring Competition, daddy can't make it. Now Nurul gets selected for her sports day, Sadly Daddy can't make it too =( Dear Daddy, I know it’s hard for you and mummy know you are also crying inside. I know how precious is Nurul to you. Ariel is growing big too. They need you are much you need them too. Mummy could see from your eyes how proud of you having such a beautiful children. You told me how guilty at times towards them. You will never left the kids behind unless there is a good reason to do so. You always want to rush back to be with kids when we were outside. Daddy is such a children lover, reasons he is the only child in the family. Therefore he loves kids so much. Our children are everything for you. We are blessed to have them, Alhamdullilah Allah. Daddy, we love you so much and proud to have you as my husband. Big hug to you daddy!!

:: 1 + 1 = 2 ::

Nurul have been vomitting since yesterday afternoon....

I lost count in the no. of times she's been vomitting ....

Gave her some medicine hoping today she gonna be well ....

But she started again today ..... Like me she having gastric I think

I just came back from a Doc myself cause I was also in pain ....

Gastritis + Menstruation Cramp = Ouch !! Sleepless night !!

1day sick leave for me today but sadly looking at Nurul .... be bringing her to a Doc tonight together with my maid medical chck appt .....

Oohh oohh ok ok gtg .... Nurul rushing to the loo to throw up again !! BYE !!!

*URGENT* - NTUC 277C Compassvale Link

Hi pple,

Wondering if NTUC in blk 277C Compassvale Link big??

Any example from which NTUC can it be compared with ??

Urgent !!! Pls!!! Thks !!!

:: It's all decided ::

Nothing to hide cause its all in the papers today.
Times are bad and as an obedient staff to my company, so I got no choice but to tag along.

1day per month ….. be it a NPL or your own Annual Leave.
As long as you go missing for a day monthly. Hahahahahah …..

Did my calculation, if I would to take NPL is best to take it on the month with 31days.
Best date to go missing, shall be after my pay date. LOL!!!

Hhhmm shall see how it goes wen it’s time to come!!

Let’s talk about Nurul, my 6yrs old girl. She is a bit disappointed as not being selected to take part in the event. Spoke to her teacher and of course to win the teacher did their best to select the fastest. I don’t blame the teacher at all. Nurul, at the beginning was reluctant to join in sports but later on excited after she went thru a few trainings.

Well its ok my girl, there will be more to come when you are in primary school. Really, really, really hope she would be able to participate in her K2 graduation this year. Inshaallah.

Apart from not so good news as voiced out, so nice to hear such consoling news on my way home from work. A circular being passed around in the bus mentioned :

“Wef April 2009, my transport fare will be reduced by $10”

So now I am $10 richer then usual. Ahakz!

Haiz~ wat a Thursday today ….. But tomorrow is Friday !! Yeah !!

:: My Lunch Today ::

For today .....

While waiting .....

Almost there .....

Done !! Wooohoo !!!

Ready to eat !!!