Sentiasa Dalam Ingatan

Abah, 5bulan dah berlalu. Begitu cepat sekali masa berlalu. Macam terasa seperti semalam baru kita beraya bersama-sama seperti keluarga yang lain. Tak pula terlintas dalam hati ini bahawa raya tahan ini tanpa Abah bersama kami.

Tak terfikir pula semasa kepulangan kami semua ke kampung ada tanda dan maksud disebaliknya.

Hanya gambar ditinggalkan sebagai penganti diri dan kenangan manis yang tersemat dihati. Dengan tangisan saja dapat kami luahkan betapa rindunya manis pada Abah.

Harijadi mu inilah harijadi yg terakhir yg dapat kami raikan. Walaupun diraikannya dgn sederhana.

Tahun demi tahun, pada mlm raya Abah lah orang yg mengisi ketupa dgn beras. Menjaga api dan air semasa merebus ketupa di luar corridor rumah. Tapi pada mlm raya ini, mummy dgn manis yg mengisi beras dan ketupa. Mummy yg merebusnya. Sambil kita mengisi ketupat tak lepas dari mulut mummy berkata "Dulu kalau ader Abah, dia yg isi ketupat ni."

Semlm lepas ku melipat baju dari jemuran yg sudah kering, aku menyimpan baju di almari mummy. Dan apabila ku terlihat baju-baju arwah abah tergantung tiba-tiba aku menangis sambil memeluk baju itu. Terutanya baju melayu berwarna kelabu yg dipakainya pada raya tahun lepas, terlalu rindu yg tidak terkata dan sebak sangat hati ini.

Tak dapat lagi aku mencium tangannya sambil memohon ampun dan maaf atas segala dosa-dosa ku. Aku percaya dia sentiasa melihat kami dari sana dan tahu kami semua sayangkan dan rindukan nya. Hanya Fatehah yg dapat kami sedekahkan.

Abah, manis selalu berdoakan semoga abah selalu berada disisi ALLAH S.W.T. Kita akan ketemu jugak pada suatu hari.

Walaupun hanya tinggal kenangan, percayalah Abah akan sentiasa dihati isteri dan anak-anak mu. Tidak lupa cucu-cucu mu sentiasa menyebut-nyebut nama mu.

Life is NO fun !! Tiring !! My feet gave up !!

Life is NO FUN for me especially raya in less then 48hrs ...

Life without bibik is no joke for me as a working mum with 2kids and a wifey ... with 2 houses to clean and maintain very tiring.

We left home at 7.30am on Sat morning. Only bibik, me and the 2kids, Hubi got to werk so bad of him to leave me alone. And of course with bibik heafty 60kg weighing of bibik luggages. Lukily all went on smooth for bibik and she have to pay $156 for her excess luggages, which is quite a worth it for her if I would to courier over using DHL, UPS, Speedpost or watever ....

Nurul was very steady waving at bibik thru the glass panel at the departure/arrival area. Ariel noes nothing ... he follows wat kakak usually does ... ehehehehe....

On my way home driving alone .... I am super worried and keep turning to the back seat to check if Ariel able to sit still and if Nurul able to tamn her little brother in the car. Lucky the is Hi5 and fun song factory to entertain him thruout the journey if not ... I DIE !!!

This is where my nightmare begins ... Cook, Clean, Feed the kids, Bath the kids, put them to sleep, Washing, Moping, Vacuum .... aarrggghhhh u name it ... But of course, i must admit My Man helps a lot in the house chores .... I LOVE HIM !! Thanks hubi.

On Sat night, my feet gave up .... both of my feet are too tiring ... I got to hang them high up !! So we took and break and decided to watch F1 qualifying on our 42inch TV. Yeah !! For the first time, just 4 of us, Me, Hubi and 2kids, without BIBIK !! We blasted our Hall aircon and lie together muching chips and cola drinks. Hahahahah.... this is wat we call FREEDOM !!

At abt 9pm, hubi sounded lets go for a ride over to hear the F1 roar !! Since this is wat most singaporeans been waiting for, we don't want to give it a miss. Kids with their pyjamas all hopes in the car and off we go .... Reach there in a nick of time to hear them roar ... Nurul was super excited to hear it. She keeps bugging hubi to park and watch the race hahhahaa.... On our way home, kids have already falls asleep ZZzzz....

Sunday, is no rest day too for us. I think for all those celebrating Syawal this weekend is no rest day ... all are getting themselve Bz... Nurul helps me to put on her new 1set powerpuff bedsheet.

Hubi fix our master bedroom set and I fix the hall and kitchen. At abt 6pm, we left our abode to return to my mum place. Lucky at my mum place, Bibik fix most 90% before she return to hometown. If not I DIE for a 2nd time ... hehehehehe

As for today, I am on URGENT leave. Mum on nightshift and kids got no one to take care of them. Hubi got to werk too ....

Tomorrow, I will be on going to werk cause thks to my MIL to help me ferry nurul up and down to school.

Wednesday, is the day most of us have been waiting for ....

Selamat Hari Raya and Maaf Zahir Batin

Jemputan ke rumah and if you need my address please let me know ok !!! Don't shy !!

takkan i nak publish pat multiply pulakkan hehehhe my house welcome all of you. Not to worry !!!

Congrats and Welcome (An additional member for 2008 Raya)

Congrats to Abdul and Erna

Aiyah ... This year kena standby extra envelope duit raya nampak nya

Hahahaha just joking .... Jgn marah eh erna *Muakzzz*

Here is Andika Farel Bin Abdul Mutalib

Born to this earth on 12 Sep 2008.

See how fair and chubby giler ... aper tak nya bb weight is 3.460kg

Hari tu tak sampai hati aku nak romos-romos pat hospital sebab dia tgh shiok tidur.

Tapi takpe ader lori ader bus ... hari raya pasti aku balas ... siap dier !!!

I'M TEARING APART ...

Bear with me with this long entry….

I am almost tearing apart after another breaking news which happens today (2^nd wk of Ramadhan).

Am still totally bothered by the breaking news which happened last week (1^st wk of Ramadhan) which is still unsettled, here comes the 2^nd one.

My 1^st news will remains as P&C.

My 2^nd news is …..

What if I tell you that my “bibik” is engaged?

She engaged in early May2008.

Yes !!! How can that be ??? She is working with me in May2008.

Yes !!! She is in Singapore in May2008.

She break this news to me during our breakfast (sahur) today. Reasons on why she told me this because, her “so-called fiancé” have married to another girl in Aug2008.

Wait .. wait … wait …. I am so confused now !!

Engaged to her in May2008 …. Married to another girl in Aug2008 …. 4mths difference ???

Can it be ??

Oh whatever !!!

My 1^st question to her “So wat is it now you are trying to tell me?”

She started by saying that her parent actually wants her to return to GOOD!!

Hey, How can it be ? You got to be fair to me …

I paid your return ticket for 1 full month holiday expecting you to return and continue your service as promised.

I trust you and I expect you to treasure the trust.

However, she acknowledges and assures me she will return after her full month holiday and serve us for another year. That is a promise, I hope my trust is not playing truant.

I am feeling all the burden on both of my shoulders. My brain is gonna burst in time to come.

As a female, mother, wife all little little things will be a worry to us and family….

1^st worry “Will she return?”

2^nd worry “Next year no more bibik?”

3^rd worry “Do I need a new bibik?”

4^th worry “Is new bibik reliable, trustworthy as current bibik who is with me for 4-5yrs?”

5^th worry “Or should take nanny instead?”

6^th worry “Childcare centre?”

7^th worry “When my worry gonna end?”

About bibik have been with me for 4yrs and next yr will be 5^th yr. She has been good and patience to my kids. Understand our family needs and 1 thing I like is she is “super auto”

Never KPO !! Never give me any major problems. She is already immune with us.

Tell the truth, I am still not willing to let her go. I may sound selfish here but honestly I wish she will be with us forever. The whole family are too comfortable with her.

Not to mention, Nurul and Ariel will cry … even I will cry ….

I know as a muslim, I should be accepting facts that is happening now. This is all wat GOD wants. Everything things that happened to be sure is for a reasons. Time will tells all….

Hubby tried to ease me and make me realized, she also wants life and she also wants to get married and have kids like all of us. We should be happy for her. She learns a lot from my mum in cooking and baking.

I know I got to understand and IF she returns and serve her 1yr notice before she returns back for GOOD, I should be thankful and make all the necessary arrangement for next year … AARRgghh

I NEED MY MUMMY …. HELP ME MUMMY !!! I NEED SOME ENLIGHTING NEWS !!!

Hopes .... Is this a blessing by "HIM"

Hope

Is it coming ?? Is it showing a signal ??

By a morning call

Sesungguhnya Dialah Isteri ....

Sesungguhnya wanita dijadikan daripada rusuk kiri lelaki.
Dia bukan dicipta dari kepala ke kaki, juga bukan dari tapak kaki. Dia dicipta dari sebelah rusuk kiri lelaki supaya dia hampir kepada kamu(lelaki), lengan lelaki dicipta untuk mempertahankan wanita, dekat dengan hati lelaki untuk disayangi.

Woman was made from the rib of man,
She was not created from his head to top him,
Nor form his feet to be stepped upon,
She was made from his side to be close to him,
From beneath his arm to be protected by him,
Near his heart to be loved by him.

"Wahai Tuhan...
ku tak layak ke syurga Mu ...
namun tak pula aku sanggup ke nerakaMu...
kamilah hamba yang mengharap belas dariMu ...

"Ya Allah...
jadikanlah kami hamba2 Mu yang bertaqwa ..
ampunkan dosa2 kami, kedua ibubapa kami,
dosa semua umat2 islam yang masih hidup mahupun yang telah meninggal dunia"......


Kubur itu gelap, cahayanya ialah Laa Ilaaha IllalLah.
Jika diletakkan langit dan bumi di sebelah dacing, dan kalimah ini sebelah yang satu lagi, pasti lebih berat lagi nilai kalimah 'Laa ilaaha illalLah' ini.
Rasulullah saw. bersabda (mafhumnya) : "Wahai manusia! Ucaplah 'Laa ilaaha illalLah', kamu pasti berjaya!"

Marilah kita ucapkan kalimah ini : "Laa ilaaha illallah!" x 10

Bayangkan betapa besarnya pahala yang Allah sediakan

Never love a love dats hurt
Never hurt a love dats loves

Unusual

Something unusual about "Him"

Something unusual feel to my "Heart"

I need a shoulder to "Cry" on

Looking for ....

Frens,

If you happened to saw a LCD Monitor cheap cheap and of course in Good Conditions.

Do let me knoe !!!

Thanks Yaaa !!!

YOU WROTE ... OUR LIFE OUR JOURNEY OUR FUTURE

WHAT WILL HAPPEN NOW ...

A WHILE AGO SOME UNEXPECTED NEWS BREAKS-IN

NOT SURE IF IT'S GONNA BE A POSITIVE OR NEGATIVE MOVES

WHAT WILL OUR FUTURE GONNA BE LIKE AFTER THIS

I NOE THIS IS A TEST BY "HIM"

I HOPE I WILL BE STRONG TO MOVE ON AND PROVIDE FULL ENCOURAGEMENT

YA ALLAH ! !

YOU WROTE DOWN ON OUR WAY OF LIFE AND YOU WROTE MINE ON THIS PARTICULAR LANE AND I BELIEVE THIS LANE YOU WROTE IS ALWAYS THE BEST TO OUR LIFE

INSHAALLAH WE GOING TO BE STRONG FOR EACH OTHER

Ramadhan

Inshaallah today will be the 5th day of Ramadhan. So far So good !!

This year, Nurul started to learn to fast even for half day afternoon. Thumbs Up for her !!

This Ramadhan, my family went thru without my dad.

Yesterday marked his 130days of his passing away.How times flies !! Isn't it ?

And talking about time, this Ramadhan will fly fast for me. I am at the midst of stress cause my Bibik going back to Kampung for 1mth and will continue return to continue for another 2yrs of her service.

I am wondering if I am able to cope with my little devils. Gosh !! Pray hard ... I won't look like a mad woman (maklum dah naik lemak katakan) .... hahahhahaa

Even Oct gonna be Raya season, I plan to go for a short trip during my 2wks unpaid leave...But nothing is confirm yet. Will see how ....

Tonight I will break-fast with Bibik only. Mum and hubi are working. Told bibik not to cook today, cause intend to ta-pau just for the 2 of us and of course Nurul too ...

HHmmm ok lah. Feeling bored actually ... Chows ~~