Something is disturbing me very much at this wee hour....
Mum ask me a questions which bother me to the MAX.
Money !! Do you know this is a sensative issue to be questioned? Well, to some its ok wat .... But dont assume I am like that too.
COMPARING !! Is another issue which I dislike most. Yes true, both of us are working but so does it means I am damn rich?
Does anyone care, how do I survive in life? No one.
Having a new house, new furniture, did a whole house reno, owns a car, employ a maid, everything new means I am RICH ? Gosh !! Think again.
Its normal, people talk on wat they saw but never think what they do NOT SEE !!
Am I wrong to spent on those things which I have waiting and wanting for donkey years ... I safe like hell and I sting on whatever I could ... No one noes but why must I let anyone noes.
Go ahead and talk behind me, i'm fine. I regret asking for help after hearing all these .... but whatever things have happened. From now on, life got to be independent and never trust those close to you.
Life have been getting disappointments one after one another. Its ok!
After letting out my hearts here, makes me feel much better .... However, blogging is better then talking to someone close. You never noe !!
Only GOD noes !! You may quote me that I am just like my DAD .... so wat !!! I care less !!!
Ya Allah, how I wish I could follow my dad in his world 
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Time for updates ... Ever since my mood for blogging was dead, slowly I am picking up and keeping myself busy. Only by looking at my new adobe makes me stress free with life. Of course hubi and kids never failed to make me smile.
Even it have been mths since my reno was over, however darls hubi are using his skills and knowledge in DYI carpentry works.
1st Project - Plate form for Lepakz .... 
Weeks back, we went to Eunos to buy LARGE plank 8x4ft (5pieces) which only cost him ard $100++ and also Formica to laminate the plank.
2nd Project of his carpentry works will be at the master bedroom....Till now, master bedroom pictures are not allowed to be post online cause Mr Hubi doesn't allow me to do so.
Our Bonus are spent on Curtains Poles and Curtains. Yes !!! I am so happy that I get myself a string curtain.
3 Different colours to choose from .... 
Trying on easy, simple and modern curtain ....
Trying on the old fashion type of curtain .... Self sewed ok last year !
Last weekend, Bonus was spent on 2sets of 26inch LCD TV selling at a reasonable price at Courts Megastore in Tampines.
1set for Master Bedroom and another is for the Kid's room. Since I am still staying with my mum till end of the year, hubi and I borrowed the Kid's LCD TV on trial and the old CTV, I moved it to my mum's spare room .... hehehehe 
Not forgetting some accessories for my children's room .... 
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Why it's so difficult to voice out wat exactly ur hearts wants?
Why does you need to head down everytime, even wen you noe it's not right?
I am afraid that I may just regret what I did may be or may not be the correct path I choose.
When will there be a right time for me to say my wants and my needs? I hope it will not be too late by then if the time really allows me to, however would you care about my feelings?
Do you think I am being selfish?
Missing someone dear in my life is dreadfull for me to go thru.
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I am not sure how am I to survive without internet till 21st of Jul08.
So frens out there ,,,, you won't be seeing me on msn till 21st of this month.
Unless I bring my lappie to the nearest FREE network available in SIN which is nearest to be will be in Mac Whitesand *wink*
So need to reached me, you may SMS or Call at my mobile for those who hav my contact.
If not, may email me at fiqah_baby2003@hotmail.com with your contact no.
Will try to get back soon :) till I see then ..... take care loves !!!
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For the pass few days
Why ?? Don't tell me ????? OOoohh NO !!! I must get rid of it !!!
But please don't tell my loves ones OK !!! Promise ???
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